Have you ever felt like you are getting nowhere, know your pushing in the wrong way, and that you’re not in touch with your ‘real’ self?This is what I call being very stuck. It’s a magical place, but very frustrating. You feel like you can’t go forward, let go, flow or be free. You’re bound, caught, limited. You are an object with no power seeking your creative spirit to soar again – and you’re on the cusp – but as they say in Maine – you can’t get there from here.
This morning I sat with my partner and walked this through in the clearest light. We didn’t fully re-solve, but we felt it out, witnessed it, let it be. Never did that before.
This is on the heals of feeling some of my own quagmire last night (in my mind this is an experience of the phase 1 mentality and what I thought of as ego elsewhere here) and found myself wishing for a miracle. This light around the experience of re-solving answered this.
I’ve had an experience here (traveling) that I can only call a revelation for lack of a more humble expression. If I were to translate an idiom maybe a “clear sight” would make more sense, but I like the notion of reveal in the former. Something is being revealed. A separation of positions of view or stance is emerging (again!). This time around the create to create – the stance of the creator.
The quagmire and the power to create are sides of this – stances in the game. I mark that I have gained a little more skill in discerning these stances and transitioning between them. One of the clear sights I have had in this learning is the sense of primeval powers or forces in full expression – where the quagmire is from a subversion of these and the place of creativity and light is when they flow effortlessly. I’m exploring the creation of miracles as an always available limitless option.
I see this as linked to Mr. Scheinfleds idea of “infinite power to create anything I want”, where so far thinking I know what I want as an object or specific is a gotcha, a vestige of phase 1 and ego. The expanded self knows, well, expansion, and phase 1 wants are not about creation, generation, growth – they are mostly about control and ultimately fear (for me). And, also, how if you are to continue to become who you really are, could you know anything about what that looks like before-hand?
