In a few places, I’ve provided some imagery the has illuminated my journey here. Today there is a new addition.
Previous posts on imagery are here. This one is much less crystalline and very closely related to something that Mr. Scheinfled writes: “… absolutely everything in your hologram has a question mark after it and absolutely nothing is etched in stone.” (p. 161)
Somehow as a consequence of my recent weird money experience things began to feel porous. This is not a constant feeling but a kind of an overlay I feel; the sense that things are “this way” in some regard, but that regard is not as monolithic as it has been. There is a basis for recognizing it as constructed, malleable, impermanent; not from a logical point of view, as a feeling. This speaks to me about a few things I’ve run up against.
One of these is the nature of “power” and the other is the infinitude of evidence for limitation. Regarding the first, the feelings that accompany this event feel powerful in a way I’ve never experienced before. It’s not conscious power, as in I will this, but as a creative force that in a benevolent way seeks to further my growth, en-joy-ment and the fun that Mr. Scheinfeld writes about. I’m willing to go so far as to say that this is an experience of Expanded Self. Regarding the second, it’s a little like when celluloid film locked in a movie projector. If you ever saw this, the film started to bubble and then dissolved leaving only light. A class of things that have seemed firm are starting to seem a bit like the celluloid in the early moments of being overheated. They’re bubbling a bit. This class is a set of deep seated reinforcers of the sense of limitation.
I’m feeling a great sense of peace and benevolence for which I’m very thankful.
